April 3, 2011

1.

Those Eyes
Them long times on the couch
Those drives through the city
Through the desert
How that hot water felt
With your skin pulled tight
against mine
No amount of alcohol
can drain you out
You've stained my skin
my mind
my heart
my thought
You are mine to me
Nothing can change that now
Damn those eyes


2.

It's Chilling with the open road ahead
Just yourself and the wheel
The cd's that hang overhead
You're running
Begging to be free
Trying to get out
Away from the people that care
for you most

I stop to overnight,
Picking a random motel
I walk to the nearest bar
for a drink
for my parched mouth
4 shots down, 2 beers, 2 more
I play pool with an elderly
Till I can take no more
I pay my tab
And continue my walk back to my room
Some bridge I cross over a river
Gleams with the moon

I make it back unharmed
But the world spins over me
I make it to the restroom
Throw up once maybe twice
Then to my temp bed, I stumble
My thoughts throw their weight on me
700 miles down
No turning back now
I shut my eyes

When you wake to a new day
New blood pumping through your veins
Still an empty road ahead
Where your new life waits


3.

My bullshit job
I slave 6-2
Five days a week
My evenings are spent
Wondering what to do

Your smile kills
All I think through the day
Its the only thing getting me by
Yet I still try to
stomp and drown it away

There was a crossroads in my life
Maybe three or four
Maybe one each new day
I think I pick the wrong
every morning

To call or to live
To ring up the past
Or walk by
Just knowing you
might be there


4.

I want to not care
to know nothing was there
to think that you never cared
I want to erase everything

We lived our lives so in sync
But you were not happy
You changed
Like most people do

So I did care
And something was there
So I set you free
And like the saying goes
Maybe you'll come back to me


5.

Muse
How you move
The curve of your hips
and lips
makes words
flow smoothly through mine
My heart beats fast
emotions easily
multiplied
Nothing any substance
can do
I've lost you before
many times
over and over
But your memory
pushes on
You're something I want
I need
I crave
For my thoughts wouldn't
be the same


6.

I miss you now
I thought I didn't
For my thoughts told me
I'm easily replaced

For those times
Oh those lovely times
I'll never see again
or live

You say that I'm stupid
But I want your happiness
For it's too much for me
to fulfill

Maybe if we seperate
You'll miss me too
For my heart and life
can't concentrate


7.

It started with a simple
phone call
An exchange of
evenings

It turned to the past
And what I have done
Plans were made
Yet now undone

You say that you love me
But I'm left confused
For my plans were one course
Now yours always split in two

You dislike who I am
For who I've become
Yet I tell you otherwise
But you'll never understand

I'm left on the fence
From whom I to run
I'll hang here until
Life has begun

I leave you on the line
and tell you
Goodnight, I hope you
won't do anything you'll regret


8.

Fuck your lips
Fuck your face
Goddamn that sweet face

The words it holds
from the curve of lips
to the glint of eyes

Fuck your thoughts
Fuck your hips
Goddamn those sweet hips

For words can't describe
what they hold through
you sweet kiss


9.

We are scared of the uncertain
And what it holds
To a phone number thats unknown
Or whats at the bottom or top

We ignore and choose ignorance
and push to forget
To hitting that hang up
Or keep striving for a life

If only we realized its all unplanned
And happens does
And that phone call was your
love calling

Great Healthy Vegan Snack "The Hummus Sandwich"

So i make these all the time. They are very quick and simple and they taste sooo good. The ingredients that i usually put into it are:

Any Bread Toasted
Roasted Tomato Hummus (or Spinich and Artichoke)
Lettuce
Tomato
Red Onions
Avocados

Now this is an easy sandwich to change up. I sometimes will use both hummuses and put them on opposite sides. I'll even grill a flat piece of tofu or tempeh with soy sauce and add that to the sandwich. If you are feeling really crazy...put it on an everything bagel. Anyways, this is a quick and easy snack for all vegans.

November 20 2010

1

a glass half full
is optimism
a glass half empty
is pessimism
yours should be over-
flowing
for what i do for you
mine was kicked over
by your selfishness
my liquid displayed all
over the ground
free to be stepped on
by everyone
it will resort to the
cracks with in the
earth
to soak in
and disappear


2

worlds hands tight at
my throat
unwilling to let go
grasping the air within
paintbrush and bottle are
the only things that
can loosen this hold
to give me sometime to
recieve the oxygen that
was promised at birth
the problem i see
is my brush will run out
of paint
and the bottle doesn't do
much for my body
so i hestiate to just
let the world
suffocate
me


3

when the eyes go fuzzed
and the world starts to
spin
im left to think of how
tomorrow will begin
but all that matters is
what goes on tonight
in this lonely bar
in this dim ass light
turning to the waitress
she never says a word
but i see in her eyes
that she is concerned
yet she brings the drinks
the 6 to 7
and become alone in the bar
just me and the drinks
fuck im so alone
i cant even think
by the time i get to the door
my legs buckle under me
and im laying there staring
at the traffic above
those hearts that are broken
and some that are loved
how they just want the
same liquid
the sign promises outside
im picked up by a man
and thrown out into the night
where im left to stumble
home

November 18 2010

1

beggars cant be
choosers
i beg and get what i
want
and dont want it anymore
for i'm left alone
on my couch

just drinking
by myself
but that's what i begged
for all along
and it's gone on every
night
over and over
again
me left typing
with a drink in hand

words come out wrong
sometimes
saying what you don't
want said
what i really want
is my own bed
with your head on my chest


2

your memories
crush me from the inside
grabbing and squeezing
trying to hold on
by the thin wire wrapped
around my rib cage

the rain from those
two years
flooded my lungs
drowning me in sorrow
for time wasted on nothing

clouds for that time
stir and blur
my vision
so i'll never see
clear again

green paper
burned for heat
left us trying to
regain any sort of
feelings

all these things will
be left there
as scars
on my sleeve
just to hold our peace


3

the beauty in your eyes
stuffs my throat
so my true feelings for you
can't be set free

you leave me here to
suffocate
on the smoke from the fire
burning inside of me

lips tied tight
with a thin thread
that has pierced and sewn
my mouth shut

maybe you're afraid
the same has happened to you
and that there won't be a
doctor
surgeon
or tailor
around to help you

November 16 2010

1

how i wish time would
freeze
for at least a year
or two
when im cuddled on the
couch
just laying with
you

your head lies on my
chest
i keep telling myself
to breathe
for the last thing
i want
is to disturb your
peace

our bodies are
intertwined
for comfort
and heat
i stare at the clock
not wanting the time
for you
to leave


2
words are meaningless
unless
an action follows
or is before

you can say all you
want
but all i'll believe
is what you do

for they're louder than your words

you tell me you like
me
you want me,
im a perfect fit

but all you show
me
is how you are
completely over us

how am i supposed to feel for this

my heart comes through
my throat
even through what i
do

i just wish
everything
was as simple
as i make it for you

is that so much to ask


3

i wish that sun
would go away
its always fucking out

it's a change to move
south
south to north
than back again

all this climate change
has got my body confused

i never thought those feelings
were there anymore
just a glance of those eyes
and i'm straight to the bottle
again

to try and blur them
from your vision
or feelings
to stomp them out
on the ground
for i never thought i would
be down here

im sitting here
praying for rain
with my whiskey bottle
dried to my lips
so i can remember
the pain

but all that comes back
is the couch

those rained in days
spent wasted laying about
hoping for the sun

what justice did that ever do
but grow us apart

maybe it was the rain
that made the warmth within
us

Tater Tot Burritos

Tonight I made some tater tot burritos for my girlfriend and step-mom, and might I say they were delicious. I was missing a few ingredients that would have made them super bomb, but life goes on. It is a very quick and easy recipe. The longest part is the tater tots, or you can use fries.
Here is the list on ingredients I used:

10" Tortillas
Refried Beans (or black)
Spanish Rice
Tomatos
Guacamole
Salsa
Tater tots (alternative fries)

What I wish I would have added would be:

Lettuce
Onions
Some sort of enchilada sauce

All together the dish is amazing.

November 15 2010

how do you want to be
remembered
some have a wasted life
on work
or a trapped life by
a mini self imagine
even others brain-washed
by a thought
taught over
and over again

if you focus too hard
and strain on one thing
that's all you'll leave
behind
for those are things
i will only remember
for some

i just want everyone
to know
my heart has one beat
and its to only be
happy

from the things
i do
to the people
i meet
to the places
i go
it's only to be happy