1
how i wish time would
freeze
for at least a year
or two
when im cuddled on the
couch
just laying with
you
your head lies on my
chest
i keep telling myself
to breathe
for the last thing
i want
is to disturb your
peace
our bodies are
intertwined
for comfort
and heat
i stare at the clock
not wanting the time
for you
to leave
2
words are meaningless
unless
an action follows
or is before
you can say all you
want
but all i'll believe
is what you do
for they're louder than your words
you tell me you like
me
you want me,
im a perfect fit
but all you show
me
is how you are
completely over us
how am i supposed to feel for this
my heart comes through
my throat
even through what i
do
i just wish
everything
was as simple
as i make it for you
is that so much to ask
3
i wish that sun
would go away
its always fucking out
it's a change to move
south
south to north
than back again
all this climate change
has got my body confused
i never thought those feelings
were there anymore
just a glance of those eyes
and i'm straight to the bottle
again
to try and blur them
from your vision
or feelings
to stomp them out
on the ground
for i never thought i would
be down here
im sitting here
praying for rain
with my whiskey bottle
dried to my lips
so i can remember
the pain
but all that comes back
is the couch
those rained in days
spent wasted laying about
hoping for the sun
what justice did that ever do
but grow us apart
maybe it was the rain
that made the warmth within
us
Feeling this way for someone, such an interesting thing. Knowing that regardless of what you do, you've lost. Sometimes, the harder you fight to keep something, the faster it runs away. I once felt this way for someone, a man who will never again give me the time of day, and I mourned as some would, I found comfort in those who offered it, and it brought me to my favorite quote and greatest lesson, I was told that "The people who face their emotions are strong, the ones who hide from them are weak". After much heartache and fits of tears, I finally learned to truly understand the quote. I no longer feel self pity when I mourn for something, because I'm allowing myself to feel, feeling myself grow and growing into something and someone better than I was before..
ReplyDeleteThe irony in this, is that you were the one I felt this way for, and although you will probably never remember me, I have my poems, poems so similar to this, written for you that will always hold how I felt, I may not feel it now, but it is forever expressed. The person who told me the quote above, is now the man who will take my hand December 11th, he is my other half, the part of me that was missing, and I never would have been ready or strong enough for him if I had not mourned you.
At the end of the day, through all the tears, I had never wished that you ever had to feel the way I did, yet these things are inevitable sometimes. You're a beautiful person, full of talent and potential, I see more in you than you will ever realize, I had more passion for you than you could ever dream of, and I hope no matter what happens, you'll be strong enough to face life head on.